I got to blow this shit up!
What pure bull shit. I want to be with you. Your so sexy. blah blah blah. SOO Sick of all the BS that comes with the male race. Its getting old, its getting draining.
I give.
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Sunday, September 6, 2009
sunny days
make for rainy nights.
well. its been over a week, and i have to admit, i'm doing great! emotions of that life are sealed away, and they are not coming back. i've moved on, to say the least, and i am in no way looking back onto 'what should have been', 'what could have been'.. a LIE. that life that was offered to me was a false reality, a very surreal mirage. i would reach out to touch it... and it would fade as soon as my hand got there.
the window is still opening. creaking its way up the frame. i have a long ways to go for me to fully open the window, it will be hard to just let go into something new. things are moving slowly, as it should. no need to rush life, we are healthy and very happy with how things are going. why rush it? rushing only ruins things. building a long lasting friendship, a foundation to build upon, this is what is important. i find myself wondering during the day.... where are you? what are you up to? are you thinking of me? i know that all i have to do is pick up my phone and i can hear your voice or just say hi in a text.. smile at you, let you know i'm thinking of you...
you get me. you understand me. i can be myself when talking to you. i dont feel i need to hide, i can smile and be happy. i dont need to be ashamed of anything. its upsetting that it took this long to find the connection i have today.
i'm not a super reglious person, but i do pray to god, i ask him for guidence. i asked him for guidence, and now, i have you. i felt the need to stand up, be strong and face my fear. i knew what would happen.. and it did, but what i thought would be a bad thing, turns out to be the best thing in the world.
the bond is forming.. it will be strong, full of trust, honor, friendship, loyalty, kindness, joy and above all Love.
me
well. its been over a week, and i have to admit, i'm doing great! emotions of that life are sealed away, and they are not coming back. i've moved on, to say the least, and i am in no way looking back onto 'what should have been', 'what could have been'.. a LIE. that life that was offered to me was a false reality, a very surreal mirage. i would reach out to touch it... and it would fade as soon as my hand got there.
the window is still opening. creaking its way up the frame. i have a long ways to go for me to fully open the window, it will be hard to just let go into something new. things are moving slowly, as it should. no need to rush life, we are healthy and very happy with how things are going. why rush it? rushing only ruins things. building a long lasting friendship, a foundation to build upon, this is what is important. i find myself wondering during the day.... where are you? what are you up to? are you thinking of me? i know that all i have to do is pick up my phone and i can hear your voice or just say hi in a text.. smile at you, let you know i'm thinking of you...
you get me. you understand me. i can be myself when talking to you. i dont feel i need to hide, i can smile and be happy. i dont need to be ashamed of anything. its upsetting that it took this long to find the connection i have today.
i'm not a super reglious person, but i do pray to god, i ask him for guidence. i asked him for guidence, and now, i have you. i felt the need to stand up, be strong and face my fear. i knew what would happen.. and it did, but what i thought would be a bad thing, turns out to be the best thing in the world.
the bond is forming.. it will be strong, full of trust, honor, friendship, loyalty, kindness, joy and above all Love.
me
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