Eff this Shhittt

nuff said.

What if....

What if what you say is a lie?

How would I handle that?

Honestly...
I can't answer that, because I don't know how I could handle that.

What if you don't love me?

How could I handle that?

I couldn't.
I would be crushed, more than heartbroken.
My heart is already damaged, but I know that this will be more than damage done.

Why do I feel abandoned?
Why do I constantly feel like I am going to burst into tears?
Why do I have this constant feeling in my gut that something is wrong?

Is it just me?

No one can answer these questions...
No one, but you.

Always & Forever

I had a day full of such doubt in myself.

I sat at a table with my best friend watching my son's sisters birthday party. The entire time I sat there, watching her. What on Earth did I do, or what is wrong with me, for someone to cheat on me.. with HER. She's loud, can be very rude (most of the time is) not pretty at all..........

I sat there going through my head.. my faults, that I'm obviously not very pretty if someone can cheat on me with.. again, her. I must be a total psycho bitch.